Notes from my diary 2017-2018
I have had out of body experiences since my childhood. But these changed drastically in 2017 when I travelled through Europe.
As a child I was flying under the ceiling of my parent’s house, in 2017 I started travelling to other dimensions.
It just happened. I didn’t even set the intention to do so. I was on the train, listening to Marconi Union’s “Weightless” which btw is for me the best track to go on astral journeys.
I was drifting away and all of the sudden, I’ve found myself outside the train in a light bubble floating through time and to other places in this world.
I’ve visited dinosaurs, saw landscapes changing over a long period of time – and I saw others in light bubbles. There was no sign that they recognized me, maybe it didn’t matter, because we were all floating around and observing the world.
That was the beginning of hundreds of astral journeys I have done ever since.
The beginning
In the beginning of my astral journeys, I went to space where a door to a white room opened. When I was in the room, filled with white light, my body except my head would dissolve. My whole being was flooded with white energy and when I merged with my physical body back on earth, I would be deeply relaxed, energized and having a tingling sensation all over my body.
Journeys to other dimensions: The absence world
There is one dimension where I never can stay for too long. But it’s the most intriguing one. There are no human beings but everything we have created. Imagine our world just without us. Trains run on the trails but no human being is there. Meals are cooking on the kitchen stove, but no human being.
It’s like everything we do, everything that is not human, is transferred to this dimension. Only humans stay in this world.
The tricky part about this dimension is that I can’t breathe there – not that my astral body would need that. But for some reason, my physical body sends out a signal that I shouldn’t stay there for too long. My physical body is literally gasping for air when I stay too long.
This dimension is still a mystery to me because I can do astral journeys in space and on other planets without having this effect on my physical body.
(2026: After many years of practicing, visiting this world is not a problem anymore)
Healing through astral journeying
Sometimes I heal my physical body during astral journeys. My astral body removes blocks in my energy field, connects the energy flow again or channels healing energy.
The dreamer
Some years ago, during one of my astral journey, the dreamer appeared.
My light sphere led me to a landscape with high hills, a river flowing into the wide open sea. A gigantic blue man was sitting with crossed legs, his eyes completely white.
I visit the dreamer every now and then. I have noticed that his facial expression sometimes changes and is related to my inner emotional state.
The back of his head is always wide open and landscapes, objects, all kinds of things are spilling out and flow into the landscape behind him.
He doesn’t notice me, not even when I am right in front of him.
It is as if he is in a permanent dream state and his dreams flow into the world behind him and become reality in other dimensions.
He is unconscious where he is or what he is doing.
(2026: I wonder if I am the conscious thought observing the dreamer)
Shamanic journeying as a door opener to connect to the source through astral journeying
In 2018, I attended a workshop about shamanic journeying. During one of my shamanic journeys, I felt my energy body as a tiny particle in space. There were millions of other energies that made their way to a huge light, like the sun but I knew it was the source.
We were pulled into the orbit of this light and we came closer to the light by surrounding it in concentric rings.
Then I entered the source.
It’s an incredible feeling. It was like – again – my whole physical body dissolving. Well, almost, because my head would – up to date – never dissolve. There is a fear that without my head I would not be able to find my way back.
Maybe it’s just my analytical, rational mind, afraid of losing control.
But my limbs and corpse melt with the source, I melt with every tiny energy around me and feel the whole collective.
Huge waves of energy flood my physical and astral body. It’s an incredible feeling. When I am connected with the source, my whole body is tingling, I feel an electric impulse in every cell.
The process
I lie down and take a few deep breath. After a while my breathing becomes very shallow. I use the same technique as when I fly with the eagle (https://www.kikikreuder.de/2-then-the-eagle-came-to-me/ ). I completely sink into the ground, my astral body detaches from my physical body – which is safely lying in a light blue energy egg that protects me during these journeys.
There is always a light sphere waiting for me. My astral body stands up, climbs into the light sphere and I sit down in it.
Sometimes I have a certain destination, most of the time I just let whoever or whatever decide what I should see.
Almost every time the light sphere brings me to the edge of planet Earth and then something extraordinary happens: I leave the light sphere and I am only energy. Like the tiny particle I have seen during the shamanic journeying workshop.
Then I drift through space, see stars and planets, asteroids, nebulas and most of the time my way brings me to the Source.
Astral journeying and past lives
My first life on Earth?
One of my journeys led me to a time when there were no humans or dinosaurs on Earth yet. Astonished, I watched how the first souls came to earth. I was a tree at that time, connected with all the other trees on the planet. We observed the arrival of human souls. I’m still moved by these pictures.
Past life as a starseed
I had one astral journey that had a very different energetic imprint. I’m still blown away.
After I left my light sphere on earth and floated through space, I was taken far far away. I haven’t been that far away from Earth before.
I have to admit I don’t have the words for what I saw and what I felt. It seems like my human brain can’t put my experience in words. It was so out of the human world.
But I will try.
There was a world, I can’t say it was a planet because it was not a dense structure. It was just blue energy, like blue fog or gas if I want to put it into human words. I heard soft whispers but couldn’t see anyone. The blue energy was flowing everywhere.
There was pure harmony and I felt in so much peace like I have never felt before. And then something changed. There was a call.
“Earth needs you”
Then I saw my energy in kind of a spaceship that looked like the light blue eggshell that I always surround myself when I do energy work.
And I flew to Earth. Alone. Because Earth needed me.