I found interesting notes in my diary from 2009 about something that I would like to share with you. At that time, I was still not talking about all of this. Hiding my thoughts, no one around me who I could talk to about this. I found “the others” 4 years later and started my real journey then.

Today I am smiling when I read these words because now so many things are clear.

My notes were a bit chaotic and I’ve rearranged them so hat it is easier to follow my younger self’s thoughts.

The Allness

A tree told me that spirits go to the allness after they leave human bodies. They acquire knowledge about a life in a human body by exchanging their experience. Some of this knowledge will be forgotten when they enter again a human body.

Spirits have a task.

The tree further told me:

“You find it easy to talk to us, because you have created an image in your soul for your task, which you want to fulfill in this life: You want to grow your soul tree. It is the centre of your soul world.

The knowledge we have during our early childhood, and with it the memory of the Allness and the spirits with who we were once connected before life began, will be forgotten for some time.

But is regained in the course of life. People, emotions, sounds, smells are the triggers. They move something in us and a little spark awakens.

Spirits who have not completed their work must seek the way back to the allness. Some of them find it right away, but others find it hard to separate from their life and try to return to it. But this path is blocked for them, their physical body is not alive anymore. Only when they accept the death of the body and are ready to start all over again, they find the way into the allness.

The belief in other living beings in the universe is due to the memory of one’s own spirit in the Allness. By the fact that we have lost our memory when entering the earthly world, the reality, we do not remember the time in the allness.

Nevertheless, we feel that there must be something. Our urge to seek and find explains our longing for the other spirits from the Allness. We feel that there are others like us. We feel that we were connected to others and long to be close to the other spirits.

  • Everyone’s deeper identity is their spirit. There is a connection to all living beings that exist.
  • We are spirits with a soul world inherent in us. Spirits from the Allness. The soul is the innermost core of the spirit.
  • The body is a mortal shell, spirit survives the physical world, reality and life.
  • The spirit is a guest in the physical world and uses it to build a soul world. When the physical shell dies, the spirit leaves it.

I was wondering if there is death at all when our spirit survives the physical body, so I asked the tree:

Is there death if life is infinite?

The answer was: Life is infinite because it continues in the soul world, the allness, after the physical death. The path of the spirit leads from the Allness (a superior dimension) through reality to the soul world (the innermost).

How do these worlds relate to each other? Where is the connection?

The answer was:

Superior world/allness: The allness lies outside of linear time and is therefore timeless. There is no beginning, because a beginning also means that there is a point in time where time begins.

Reality, earthly world: Is connected with time, time is linear and follows a line/path, there is a beginning and an end, the path always leads to the end, one cannot escape the end; after the end one returns to the allness or enters the soul world.

The soul world

  • Lies outside of linear time, in the innermost there is no time
  • The soul world contains all the accumulated experiences and memories
  • The goal of life is to collect experiences and memories to store them in the soul world to be able to live in this world after physical death
  • So, if you withdraw from life and don’t have experiences, you can’t reach your soulworld
  • It is therefore a matter of internalizing and absorbing the earthly world
  • The transition from earthly life to the soul world is the end of life in reality, the journey to the core of being, to the innermost is the goal
  • A spirit’s journey ends in the soul world when it has brought its world to final perfection.